Saturday, July 31, 2010

Not Sure How to Take That

Ever notice how sometimes it's hard to know the intent of someone's words when you read them instead of hear them? That's kind of how I am about one of the responses I got to my last post. My first thought was to come out swinging and rant back at the commenter. So, I took a couple days to settle my feathers.

Seeing as how my followers dropped by one, I can assume she meant it just how she said it. Should you read this I'm sorry if what I write offends you or if you got upset because I chose not to have him arrested for selling what I feel wasn't his right to sell.

If I knew when I had money what I know now, I probably wouldn't have left then either. But I didn't know how things would be 3-4 years later. But you know me and the kids were reeling from the death of my grandma who was a HUGE part of our lives. Even if I could have or would have left then, it probably would have sent them both over the edge. So even still back then if I had known that what he's doing is emotional abuse, I don't think I'd have left, not then.

And for the record, it's only been the last couple of years that I was even aware that it's emotional/psychological abuse. Grasping that reality in itself is rather difficult. There are days I still find it difficult to comprehend. Emotional abuse is subtle sometimes and difficult to prove, even the lawyer told me that.

You know maybe you're right, maybe I won't ever leave. I don't know what the future holds. It's sad that you think I'm writing my blog just to complain and that I enjoy complaining. I write here because it's an outlet that I can freely express what I'm thinking and feeling, so sorry you can't see that. If I was able to see a counselor I'd be telling them more or less the same things I write here. Would that be considered complaining as well?

If my posts have been coming off as complaining, to you my followers I apologize. I thought I was using my blog as a means of expressing how I felt and what was going on in my head. It was never my intent to offend anyone. It amazes me too that one person's comment has me considering deleting my blogs. Maybe I don't have a blog of substance after all.


  1. perhaps its not my place. But can I just say this?

    You write your blog for yourself.
    Not for your followers.
    Your blog is a way for you to release your thoughts.
    One of MY followers in my Tumblr blog pointed this out.
    Don't care about the add or subtract of followers. They're supporters to you, who like you and support your ways.
    If the number drops. Whatever to them.
    If the number grows, more power to them.
    They're supporters.

    Whether they post comments that ruffle your features or not, they'll come and they'll go.

    But just always remember, don't EVER delete a blog because of what ONE person says.
    Its your blog.
    And one follower can't control your actions.
    Just sayin'.

  2. I meant feathers. But you know what I mean, right!? Haha.

  3. Yes honey because Mama wears her secret decoder ring all the time, I know what you meant.

  4. You sweet thing....I completely agree with Rosie. I am so sorry you were so randomly hurt by someone, what you say matters and how you say it depends only on you. I love your blog and your daily insights and obstacles....its called "Life". I admire you for having the strength and courage to blog about it all on here. I wish I could open up a little more like you. Brightest Blessings always...)o(

  5. I agree with everything that has been said already. I count myself honored that you share your thoughts and challenges with us and if it helps you to deal with your daily life, I am happy to be of service. Keep it up and try not to let one (or 1000) negative response(s) change the way you run YOUR blog!

  6. Oh hun reading your post greatly sadens me. I agree with all that has been said above. Your blog is simply that, for your thoughts and moans no matter what they may be. I love following your blog and find you truly inspirational :) and yes truly a blog of substance :) dont let 1 negative comment deter you although easier said than done sometimes lol keep your chin uo sweetheart huge hugs and many blessngs x x x x x