Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Has anyone seen my muse?

Most days I feel like I need to put up a "Lost" poster. Saying something like "LOST! Muse is missing. If you've seen her please call XXX-XXXX. Owner distraught. Reward: A good story (hopefully)."

For the most part I've not seen but mere glimpses of my muse for months now. I can't seem to coax her out to stay no matter how hard I try. I've tried music, wine, chocolate, staring at a blank page pen in hand, and nothing. My character is whining at me because her story isn't getting started, but I don't know where to begin, or what direction to take it. Other than the character, I basically have very little. And my muse, she won't cooperate. I don't know what to do.

Even my first project, that I put on hold when my grandma got sick, is still sitting parked in idle. I've even tried re-reading it and other idea I was playing with, and I get nothing. It's like my spark has gone out, or at the very least has been reduced to a very dim flicker.

This is very frustrating and I kind of feel like I'm failing. Sometimes it makes me feel like I should give up on my dream.