Boy time sure flies when you're busy doing nothing. Half a year is almost gone and what's to show for it? Not a whole hell of a lot, that's for shit sure.
I had planned to blog here a bit more often and well that hasn't happened since March. As my Beloved keeps saying...I seem to be in a rut. Which he says is making me pissy and quite bitchy. I haven't felt like I am but that doesn't me I'm not either.
My plans to paint the
year away haven't lived up. Same with writing. I totally flopped and
failed for April's Camp NaNoWriMo. I don't even know what my biggest
struggle is. I can't seem to find the motivation. I can't get into a
daily practice. I really struggle with it. I don't know why I'm having
such a hard time with developing a daily practice of art and writing. I
want to do them, but I feel held back. Maybe it's those voices that
tell me whatever I create will be shitty. I dunno. But it's annoying
and it's getting old.
So today, being the
first day of a new month am deciding more or less enough is enough. But
be warned I've said this before and feel right back quite easily into
the non-creative rut. As I was saying, I decided to take on a challenge
called 100 Happy Days. There is a website by that name if you want to
sign up and take the challenge. Which in itself is rather simple in its
concept. Take one photograph of something that makes you happy and
post it online with the hashtag of 100 happy days. Simple right?
Sounds easy enough. But the challenge is going to be A) remembering to
take said photo, B) remembering to post said photo. The thing I dread
is what if I don't have or find something to photograph. I did take my
first picture though and it's already posted. Because well...Llamas!
also signed up for a free challenge at The Sketchbook Project. (Oh did
I mention the above mentioned challenge is free too? Well, it is!)
For this, I have one week, well until June 6th to find and photograph a
face in an unusual place. I tend to over think things...A LOT! So I am
finding this a real challenge. If you want to participate, there are
still spots available...you can sign up here: http://www.sketchbookproject.com/projects/challenge
finally there is another Camp NaNoWriMo starting July 1st. I've
already signed up with a goal of 10,000 words. That's approximately 323
words a day. So we'll see where I get with this one.
say that I have nothing to show for half a year isn't entirely true. I
have made a few journal pages. And I've worked some on a big painting I
have hang up, it's not done yet. The face is giving me a grief. I
have a hard time with faces, and I'm trying to figure out what works for
Another thing, I want to delve into is
to study Druidry. I've found a couple of places where I can do so
online for free. I just don't know I'll start that. I wish I had some of the books about Druidry so I didn't have to be at the computer to study. But I can't afford to buy them and I can't afford to buy a library card, besides I don't think they have said books anyway.
So there it is. I'm struggling, I've fallen into a rut, and I'm tired of it. I just don't know how to get off this merry-go-round that isn't so merry.