"She really needs to sort out her priorities." ~~ Ron Weasley
That's basically me in a nutshell right there! I just can't seem to get myself to do it. I want to write. I want to make art. I want to blog. But I just can't for the life of me get my shit together enough to do what I want to do. What I need to do.
I want to write because one day I hope to be published. I don't want to be JK Rowling famous, but I would like to be able to buy a few nice things.
I want to make art, to paint. Not just for me, but to sell as well. If anyone would buy it, I don't know. But like my writing I'm afraid I suck at it too much. And if I don't suck too much, I don't want it to become like a job where I end up hating or resenting it. Does that make sense??
I want to blog (more). I just don't feel like I have anything to "talk" about most days. I suppose I could like blog about things in the world that strike a cord with me. Like the young woman in Florida who got 20 years for firing a warning shot in the air, warning her abusive ex to stay away from her. This in itself would take a whole post at minimum. As a survivor of abuse, this really hits home. Maybe this will be a post for tomorrow after all.
I just really want to figure out a way to do, to get myself motivated to do the things I want and need to be doing.