Hare Moon, May Moon

This is a picture of tonight's full moon. I had to have my budding photographer take it for me with her awesome camera because my dinky, crappy one just wasn't cutting it.

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My First Tarot Deck

Got the chance to get up to Books-A-Million today...and lo and behold they actually got a restock on their tarot decks and even some new additions to their new age/pagan book section.

I looked at all they had in stock...picking out the ones I'd already been looking at on various sites. Started with 3 choices, put one back because I knew I could get it way cheaper online (like half price including the shipping! Which I ordered when I got home. It's the Gilded Tarot deck) So now I'm down to 2 choices.

Finally settled on the Mystic Dreamers Tarot. It's a pretty deck (far better the deck I bought long ago that didn't appeal to me at all but thought it was the deck I was "supposed to" have), came with a book and a bag to hold my cards in. I had had this deck in my hands pondering to purchase on more than one occasion, so I knew I was drawn to it in some fashion. Now I get to learn about my cards and how to read them.

Wishcast Wednesday-Space

Mmm...an easy one finally...No need to think about it all. This week Jamie asks "What do you wish for your space?"

Well IF I had my own space (guess I need to wish for that too, lol) it would be a place to call my own. A place where I can store all my books on scores of shelves with a big comfy chair to settle into while I read. It would have an area to do crafts so I can openly create and leave stuff out if I wanted to and plenty of storage to keep (and add to) my craft supplies, sewing stuff, scrapbook stuff, etc. And it would have a desk with a good comfy chair that won't kill my back while I sit and write be it long hand in a notebook/journal or on my computer. It would be painted in a color I love and decorated with things that scream of who I am and what I love.

Wishcast Wednesday-To Have

This week Jamie asks "What do you wish to have?" So hard, yet so easy. I've ponder this some all afternoon.

I wish to have my beloved here with me.
I wish to have a set of tarot cards (just can't seem to find the right ones...yet.)
I wish to have restful sleep at night.
I wish to have no doubts, no fears.

Need some suggestions

For some unknown reason I can't find any of my new-age/pagan/witchy shopping sites. I thought I book marked them but alas my saves are missing. I tried to look for a few from memory but that isn't working out either.

I am looking to buy a tarot deck. I'm sort of leaning towards one of three...Pagan Tarot, Druidcraft Tarot, or the Gilded Tarot. But I don't know yet. I'm on a limited budget too so I'm looking for a site that has good prices on not only their tarot decks but other stuff as well like jewelry, gemstones, books, altar items, etc.

If anyone knows of some good online shops with great prices please let me know.

Bright Blessings to you all!

Wishcast Wednesday-Experience

Okay, okay...I know it's not Wednesday...I know I'm really late posting this. I've just had a lot on my mind and wanted to think about what it is I wish to experience. That's Jamie's question to us this week.

So after much pondering and even more pondering, I wish to experience:

Life, without fear or shame, without doubt, without being afraid to be me.
My dreams, to become a Master Herbalist, to learn Holistic Healing, to learn
to read the tarot. Writing, to be published, to be successful even if it's small.

A Crazy Thing Happened at the Expo Yesterday...

So yesterday was just full of surprises. I'm still kinda reeling from the tarot reading. Late last night doubts started to kick in, what if she was wrong, what if none of it happened, no matter how accurate she was. I'm trying to hold on to the positive aspect, that she read things in the cards only I would know and asked no leading questions, didn't ask what I was looking to find out...she just let the cards speak. A far cry from the 2 readings I had about 20 years ago...what started out as a $20 reading quickly escalated to the reader, portraying herself as a gypsy, to her saying I 'needed' to give her $200. She said it was the only way for her to get a clear reading, and none of what she told me came true, she asked a lot of questions, and she wasn't even remotely close to anything...so you can see my leeriness of getting a reading.

But anyway...that's not the other crazy thing...no, no...

So this expo is all like holistic, homeopathic, organic type stuff...vitamins, drinks, foods, body care, massage therapy, some craft vendors, etc... Well! In the midst of all that there was a lawyer! At the fare! A DIVORCE LAWYER!!! I'm like huh? A lawyer has a booth at the fare, wtf? And she was giving away these little baggies with a tea-light candle, herbal tea bag and her card...telling anyone who passed by, "Bring me your crazy!" So of course, I'm intrigued by this woman. We got to talking, she said "Ask me anything." So I did, we talked, I told her I had to be careful as "my crazy" was at the expo with me. We briefly talked about the girls, she said they are of age and can choose who they want to live with. We talked about how he's in denial and won't let go, she said in this state only one party has to want the divorce, so I won't need "HIM" to say okay.

She told me I had to stop looking at how I was stuck and couldn't get out, and start thinking about how I was going to get where I want to be. And if I wanted out, she could help me get there but I have to truly want it. I want it...Goddess knows I do, but...I don't have the $4000 it's going to cost to get there...not yet I don't and I have NO bloody idea how I'm going to get that money. I had it 3 years ago, before "HE" blew through it all. How in the heck am I going to get this kind of money??

All I have to hold onto right now is that the tarot reader saw money picking up for me in the next year, that she saw me in some sort of business, and she saw me writing. Maybe one of those is an avenue but I'm so far from any of it I don't see how it's even possible. But it's all I've got to hold onto right now.

What a Day! I'm shocked and amazed...

Okay...it's been a heck of a day... I finally got to go to the Alive! Expo at the Georgia World Congress Center. Only been trying to go for the last oh 4 maybe 5 years? "HE" finally gave in...why, I don't know but "HE" did.

There was a lot to see...many vendors, I think I must have walked the place at least 3 times over just to make sure I saw everything. Most were different supplement companies promoting their products. A few massage centers were there, some organic food vendors...even an Indian Vedic who was doing among other things...past life readings. I wanted to have it done so so badly...he would have covered up to 5 past lives...but $79 was more than I could have spent this trip. So sadly I didn't do it...I wish I had...but there was no way I could spend that amount.

Then there was also a mini psychic fare going on at the expo as well. They had some tarot card readers. And I struggled with getting a reading done for like half hour. I had a bad experience about 20 years ago...so I was very hesitant to get it done. As I walked around for the 3rd time...pondering if I should or not...I caught up with my little one and she was like "MOM! Did you see the psychic fare?" I told her I did, and wanted to have a reading done but knew "HE'D" be against it. She says "PFFT! Go for it if you want it." Soooooooo...I did. And OMG!

The reader was one the money...I mean spot on. I didn't have to tell her anything at all. First she did a birth reading based on my date of birth (m/d/yr). She told me about my Scorpio nature, and my Gemini moon sign. And about the other signs on the day of my birth. She read me like a book on most of that, lol.

Then she had me pick 7 cards and proceeded to interpret them, then had me pick 7 more and interpreted them too. She saw a lot in the cards. I was truly amazed. She saw me as creative, intuitive, strong psychic ability. She said I needed to get a set of tarot cards and learn to use them and practice with them. She said she saw creativeness with writing, movies, and/or photography, that I'd write steamy sexy stuff...she asked what kind of writing I was interested in...I told her fantasy...she said "oh, you're the next J.K." Of course that thrilled me to even think I could be in the same realm as her.

She said I was indecisive, that I had trouble making decisions. She saw my beloved...and new he was younger, she also saw "HIM" and new he was the older. She said "HE" doesn't want to let go and won't make it easy. She saw me traveling and something about Florida but she didn't elaborate. She saw me studying and that I'd do well in my classes. She saw finances improving in the next year or so. Again my purpose came up and she said it has to do with counseling, writing, spiritual/creative, photography, working in holistic healing was most likely where I would end up. She said I'd most likely end up using tarot cards as part of my business. And that I might be starting a business in the next year.

She also said "HE" doesn't want to let me go. She had trouble seeing it in the cards I picked. She continued to go through the deck and both of them kept coming up, she saw that I was strongly drawn to my beloved, and that I would be with him. She saw that he is planning for us to be together. She said it would be 10 months to a year before I'd get "HIM" out of my life, but that it would happen. And she did see me and my beloved together and that we'd be married.

It's so much to take in. I'm still trying to process it all. I also bought 3 stones: a moonstone, a rose quartz, and a kyanite.

Writing and Challenges

So I've gone and made yet another blog...this one will be related to my writing or lack there of. I don't know how active it will be, but it's there for me to post when the mood or Muse strikes and I want to tell the tale of my journey at that point.

You can find it here. There's only a couple of posts up, one of which is about a challenge to write 56 pages in 56 days. No word count, just a page. So the font and spacing can be as big or as small as I want...no pressure lol. Just as long as it's a page. We'll see how that goes. Seems a bit more doable without a word count looming over my head. Maybe that's why I struggle with NaNoWriMo, I don't know but anyway...this one starts tomorrow and goes through June 30th. Just one more thing to add to my plate.

May 1st

WOW! My 85th post! I'm kind of surprised I have that many, last blog I had never made it past the "welcome to my blog" post.

On this day, I'd like to wish everyone a Happy May Day! Blessed Beltane or Blessed Samhain depending on where you live.

Did you know...it's also National Love Day in the Czech Republic, Lei Day in Hawaii, and Herb Day? There are a bunch of others but I picked the coolest ones. Also on this day in 1967 Elvis married Priscilla in Vegas, the first cooked meals on a scheduled flight are introduced on an Imperial Airways flight from London to Paris in 1927, dwarf planet Pluto officially named 1930, the Empire State Building is dedicated in New York in 1931, Kingdom of Hawaii established by King Kamehameha in 1785...just some random useful or useless facts I came across.

And if your a Middle Earth nut like me, from TheOneRing.net :

The following event(s) took place in Middle-earth on May 1^st:

• Gandalf and Bilbo reach Rivendell (1342)
  
• Sarn Ford where Gandalf and Aragorn met (1418)
  
• Crowning of King Elessar (1419)
  
• Elrond and Arwen set out from Rivendell (1419)
  
• Samwise marries Rose (1420)