Madness being NaNoWriMo. It will be my 7th year trying. Will this year be any different? I don't know.
I was on the fence about it...do I or don't I? The next thing I know, I find myself changing my facebook cover photo and profile picture to reflect NaNo; making a new song list; thinking about my options for what to write. Do I go back and once again try to work on my original NaNo story? Do I work on one of the ideas that I've been scribbling about here and there as they pop into my head? OR Do I try to create something totally fresh and new? Which of course I have no clue what I would do, LOL.
I'd like to do some planning, but I'm really not a planner/outliner type person. I know everyone has their own methods that work for them. My first character, I didn't build her or plan her she was just there. The only thing she really lacks is a name. I've never been quite happy with her name, something about it just doesn't fit right and I haven't found something that does yet. I have tried the planning of characters part, but then I just seem to get hung up on details or try to force things and then they just go away. I need to work on my relationship with them, don't ya think? I sometimes think I just try too hard!
Either way, I usually end up getting frustrated or sidetracked. Then I end up falling behind. Eventually I realize I won't catch up and then I end up give up on the project. I want it to be different this time. Part of me is thinking that maybe, instead of focusing on word count that I should focus on just getting stuff written. No matter how much or how little. But just get it written. If I can do that the entire month I'd call it a win even if it isn't 50,000 words. At least I can say wrote the entire month, so what if it might only be 300 or 500 words a day.
If only some how I can turn my traumas and past into a story of survival. But when you're mind set is elves, faeries and dragons...how do you spin it?