Wow...I can't believe I'm actually doing a wishcast on it's appropriate day...usually I forget or do them very late and end up posting on a Thursday or Friday. But here I am on a Wednesday...YAY! Anyway, Jamie's prompt this week is "What do you wish to give yourself permission for?"
I like many others I'm sure have a hard time giving myself permission for anything. Whether it's to buy something, do something, even learn something new. I'm always afraid of being judged negatively or worse deviating from one's perception of who I'm supposed to be. I've live all my life in fear of letting others down because I wasn't who they wanted me to be or doing what they wanted me to do. Now I'm at a point in my life where I don't even know who I even am anymore.
I like Gothic things (clothes and jewelry I'd go nuts if I actually allowed myself to buy things in Hot Topic), I love to wear black and dark colored clothes, I want to learn about the path of a solitary witch and/or path of a druid or both even just to learn and find my way, I want to hang my bird feeders out without being scolded that they drop seeds that sprout flowers, I want to plant the flowers and herbs and veggies that I want...I could go on and on and on.
So I, Ellie, give my self permission to:
1. Find myself and be who I AM without guilt or fear.
2. To wear the things I like sometimes even if I'm 40 and a mom of 2 teen girls.
3. To learn the things I want to learn and let myself explore and find my way.
4. To be able to speak and be heard, not ignored or ridiculed for my thoughts opinions or beliefs.
I could probably add a bunch more, but I will save that for another day.