It's just a sad reality of things, especially in this day and age.
I am fairly certain I have Fibro. I do know I have Chronic Pain. But the more I learn about Fibro, the more it seems like that is also what's going on. Throw in a little PTSD or C-PTSD and anxiety, things are really fun. But I can't let it all control me or my life.
I've had a not so fun couple of weeks of bumping into things, which has left colorful bruises in various places. These bumpings have triggered other not so fun pain events. Including the one I am experiencing now with pain from my neck to my tail bone, turning my head to one side is awful, add in my constant hip pain. New to the mix is the pain in my hands even when I am idle.
Emotionally, I am trying to keep it together. Crying or getting angry won't help or fix things. Things just are what they are.
Yesterday, being Mother's Day made me miss my Grandma more than the usual. But it also made me think of my mom, something I don't do very often. In my thinking about her, I think I sort of understand her in a way I didn't before. A little scary, but also felt like a revelation. I'll never know if I am right in what I am thinking, but it is somewhat of a comfort. And a belief I can accept, to a point. Some of what she did was inexcusable and unwarranted. But if I am right, even partially, it does explain a lot. In many ways, my sister was the lucky one I think.
But oh well, it is what it is, as the saying goes.
Hope all the moms had a great mother's day.
Oh, my friend, I can surely empathize. Sounds like fibro to me. I live in chronic pain as well--fibro and osteoarthritis. I just do my best to keep myself going. I found that Qigong helped me a lot with my neck and shoulder issues. Yoga not so. Destroyed my back. I'm suffering along with you, my friend. I bought something with something like rice in it for my neck. Heat it in microwave for a minute then wrap it around. It helps. Copper Fixx cream as well. Hope you feel better soon.
ReplyDeleteThanks Mary. I hope you are on the mend with your back. I'll have to look for that "rice bag" next time I am out. I know I could make one, if I get the gumption to :) I've not seen Copper Fixx, I'll have to make note of that too. I do have some Tiger Balm, but I haven't dared to try it as I know how hot it can feel. In the mean time, I am great friends with my heating pad.
DeleteThe good thing about Copper Fixx is that it has no scent and you can put it on when you go out. It is hard to find so when I find it I buy a few.
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