Yule is fast approaching, as is Christmas and New Year's. It's about that time of year to start thinking about my word or words for 2012.
My word for 2011 was Freedom. I had no idea when I picked my word how I would achieve what I knew I had to do. It took my word nearly crashing down around me, almost losing my Beloved... It took going through Connie's BIG workshop... It took the love and care and encouragement from some very dear people for me to escape my situation. All these things helped me reach my decision to leave and step out and travel 2200 miles to gain my freedom. These things helped me decide to leave an abusive situation.
I've have I think for the most part reached my word for 2011. I am free of the negative words and constant, sometimes daily put downs. I am free of feeling trapped by a man who tried and succeeded for a long time to control me. I am free to be me, free to find my way back to who I am, who I want to be. I am free to laugh at silly things, I free to be silly, I am free to believe as I wish, I am free to share my opinions and not be judged, I am free to create and paint. I am free to follow my heart.
While I have had a set back in actually doing art. That was of my own doing. I let my fears over take me and haven't picked up my paints or my paint brush in months, but I plan to change all that.
Which leads me to thinking about my word for the new year. I don't know if I can pick just one word. Right now, I am leaning towards Create. In some ways it seems like a good choice for me. But, I will ponder and meditate on some choices and see where I end up. I will post my choice at the end of the year.