And Shit Keeps On Coming

 I've been dealing with insurance issues since October now. 
Couldn't get a straight answer out of anyone.
The department that is supposed to know WTF is going on,
never saw any outside insurance.  So they claim.
Last month, someone finally put in for an in depth
review and investigation into my situation.
Because you know, shit keeps getting denied because of some
mystery insurance.

I finally got a call from the case worker who put the review request in.
She says that there is an active outside policy on me, but it was not
included in the report what it was.
So I had to call the department that claims all this time that nothing was
there, for them to tell me "Oh yes, there is a policy active with 'such and such'
company."  I insisted that there was not, so the gentleman who took the call
checked somethings and came back to tell me there was and who it was through.
Gave me a number to call that company but claimed he couldn't give me any
more information like policy or group numbers.  (Which later I found out 
was complete bullshit!  Because if it is in my file I have a RIGHT to ALL 
the information in it.)

So I proceed to call said company and asked them to remove me from this policy.
I was told I cannot remove myself because I am not the policy holder.
It didn't matter that I was on there without my consent.
No one gave a shit about that at all.  

Oh no....four different representatives told me I had to contact my abuser and ask
him to remove me.
Excuse me..........what???  I've been out of state and no contact for almost 10 years.

Seeing I was getting no where with these service reps, I told them have a nice day.
Then promptly lost my shit and had a good fucking cry.
Because FML....I should be able to get myself off something that I didn't agree or 
consent to.  Plus I live out of state from him.

I spoke with my doctor's office and they are going to try to get me more information
about how to proceed from here.  Thank the gods they are being supportive and working
with me. I told her though that under no circumstances (at least those in my control)
would I be going forward with my surgery until all this is sorted out.

I also tried going through Legal Aid to start divorce proceedings.
But because he isn't actively beating the shit out of me or threatening to, they can't help.
AGAIN....FML!
Oh and the lawyer totally made me feel like shit because "why have you waited so long to 
file or try to file for divorce?"  Um, why the fuck should that matter?

I have some calls in to other places that might be able to help me.
Just gotta wait to hear back.

SIGH!!!!!!!!!!

A Not So Great Start, Eh?

 I feel like 2021 is starting out by telling 2020, "Here, hold my beer!"
The events of January 6th were just HOLYFUCK! WTF JUST HAPPENED!

All I could do was think of my Grandma.
And how she must have been rolling over in her grave at what was happening.
This was not the country she knew and loved and fought to come home to.

I'm sure if she were still living, she would  be saying she's seen all this before.
Living in Europe during World War II.
She didn't have to be there, to live through that.  But her parents, her mother
especially insisted she go with them.
I often wonder what different life choices she would have made if she was allowed to stay.
Would she have been a completely different person?
Of course, she wouldn't have met my Grandpa or had my dad, uncle, and aunt.

I think of my family members that served.
Is this the country they fought for?

I think of BLM.
How differently it would have all been handled.

I just can't wrap my head around it though.
I can't understand how people can justify this as being okay.
How people can support this.

Maybe I'm looking at things through rose colored glasses.
Maybe I'm just too naïve.

I am disgusted by what happened.
I am appalled.
I am angry.
And I am scared that it will happen again, and again.

Happy New Year!

 I fully intended to round out the blogs last night with a FUCKOFF and FAREWELL 2020 post.

But in the end, I opted to go to bed instead.  
Bonded with my new heating pad and just chilled while listening to the neighbors all shooting off 
fireworks.

So, I figured I would just start the new year off with a post instead.

I wish you all a very Happy New Year!

I wish you good health and good fortune.
Happiness and Peace.
May 2021 be gentler, kinder, softer for all of us.