My number one problem is I'm a procrastinator. No IFS, ANDS, or BUTS about it. And it sucks! I really need to pull my shit together.
I have sparks of ideas, some that I think are really good sometimes. Then the "gremlins" chime in. And the more I think about my ideas and how to bring them to action, the louder these bastards get. Next thing I know I'm putting off my ideas and then not following through on them. It's the same with art and writing. It's absolutely frustrating!
Then I see other people's art like Danni's or Effy's or Connie's and go through the whole I'm not as good as they are phase. Or I hear about people doing NaNoWriMo that are at 10k, 25k, even 40k words and I'm still sitting at a whopping 3004.
I love to cook, but I'm afraid to cook because I fear they won't like what I fix. I'm scared to bake anything that doesn't come out of a box mix just because I've never really done anything from scratch.
I'd love to go back to school, but I don't know what direction to take. It's not feasible to get a job right now due to transportation issues, unless I can find some sort of work at home deal. The same with school, I'd need to find some online schooling that I could get financial aide for.
I just don't know what direction I want to take with my life. I want to do something meaningful. I want what I do to have significance. I want what I do to make a difference, not just in my life but in other people's lives as well. I want to do something I can be proud of. I just don't know what to do.
